| Semi-emo rant |
[Mar. 3rd, 2008|03:53 am] |
What am I doing? Seriously? Every school I go to I change my tune. I try to fix what I screwed up the last time around. And what did I learn from High School? That I need to take care of myself. That I can't invest all of my well being in others. That giving constantly is a recipe for disaster. And I'm falling back into it. It's so easy. SO easy! I mother people. But now the effects are getting ridiculous. I spent upwards of ten hours mothering 5 different people this weekend. What the hell? What am I thinking?! I've got 3 midterms this week! Am I psycho? Honestly, I need to back the hell off. I love the people I'm mothering, but I need to tone it down. I'm getting crazy and depressed. And to turn it around I need to interact with more people. I feel myself separating, and I don't like it.
What am I talking about? Jesus. I want to do something with my life for once. Really. I'm going insane, falling behind in school, and getting sadder and sadder. Why is it the more I give the hollower I feel? This is getting ridiculous. Something has got to give and I don't know what. Time will tell I guess. |
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I do not know what to say but that I read this. It might make you feel better just to know that I do not know XD Ummmm...taking care of your self is important...as I have learned that hard way.....
You're hollowing yourself out by giving it all up. Leave some time to replenish your insides.
Thanks for the (very) belated cheer-up XD. That was a really awful weekend, but things haven't really been so bad since. Thanks dear!
It's how I do. I catch up on LJ periodically and leave really dated comments. By the way, are you free this week? I'm leaving on the 21st. | |
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